Tuesday, June 03, 2014
Sometimes it's just too much.
I don't understand Austin's personality. It is completely different than mine. He will fight tooth & nail, bossy, loud, constantly talking. He has other good qualities too and I love him with my whole life. He is hard to parent alone, though. I pray for him everyday that he will use his strong qualities for good. That he will love Jesus fiercely, know Jesus's love for him, and that I am not screwing him up.
I am parenting alone.
Then there's Khloe who I pray will be sweet and quiet like me. I pray she will love Jesus fiercely and know the love Jesus has for her.
On top of that I am working on my resume to start looking for a job, and thinking about buying a house. With that comes daycare, budgeting, making decisions about what's best for the three of us.
So my life is stressful. Our life has changed, things are different, parenting 2 children under 4 is hard. But life goes on and I have to parent these kids and get a job and take care of this house and myself the best way I know how.
My Dottie loved Frank Sinatra so here's to Dottie and 'ole Blue Eyes:
"The Best Is Yet To Come"
Out of the tree of life I just picked me a plum
You came along and everything's startin' to hum
Still, it's a real good bet, the best is yet to come